Tuesday, February 9, 2010

This Month in the ROK

Blogging has been slow lately.  Not just on my end.  I subscribe to a lot of blogs and there are hardly any updates right now.  Perhaps everyone has a case of the winter blues.  I know I do.

I'm going back to America on Saturday.  I'm so excited.  The flights will be long and hard, but it will be worth it to see my family and eat  my favorite foods again.  I'm just stressed out because I don't know how I will fit all of my eating into 6 days!

I am going to be a real jet-setter this year.  I'm going to America in about 3 days, and my friend and I just bought tickets to Hong Kong for the weekend of March 19-21.  We'll only have 1 full day there, but it will be full of excitement.  We have about half of Sunday as well.  Then we're going to Taiwan in May.  Hopefully Beijing in June, and then my summer vacation.  I still haven't decided if I want to do just Thailand or split it up and go to Cambodia for a few days as well.

I've discovered the joys of the casinos here in Korea.  I've been to Paradise and 7 Luck down in Busan.  I like 7 Luck better, plus they supposedly have a better payout.  But I'm too much of a wuss to bet enough to make a difference.  I go Busan every weekend now.  I'm going down on Thursday night and staying with a friend for 2 nights, then I'm flying out on Saturday.  I can't wait.

Well, that's about it.  I assume I will have more to blog about once school starts again.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Future-itis

I tend to worry a lot about the future.  The future is so big and mysterious and important.  So much of what we do is because we are thinking ahead.  Every job we take, every class we take, every person we befriend or date or love will all shape that invisible monster called the future.

When I first got to Korea, I felt a great sense of relief because for the first time in such a long time I wasn't thinking about the future.  I had a job for the next year, I had an apartment for the next year, I knew where I would be and what I would be doing.  The future was just that-the future.  Nothing to worry about.

Now that I'm 6 months in, the future that seemed so far away is starting to creep a little closer.  In my last post, I talked about what I ultimately want to do with my life.  And until recently, I had a timeline for that.  Take my GRE this summer, begin applying to grad schools this fall, begin my master's degree in fall 2011.  But then I started to think about what that means for my life.  It means obligations, debt, and staying put.  Maybe even...settling down.

At the beginning of my contract in Korea, that didn't sound so bad.  I thought I would have my globe trotting out of my system by then.  But now, I know that is not true.  If anything, I want to travel more.  I thought living in Korea would give me the opportunity to do and see so much.  I imagined myself doing weekend trips out of the country all the time.  Travel in Asia is so cheap, they said, you can get from one country to another for less than $100!  Well, that may be true for Southeast Asia, but not from Korea.  The only other Asian country I've been to is North Korea, and that was just from the DMZ tour.  (although I just booked tickets to go to Taiwan on May 20 for the long weekend!)

When I went to Australia for winter break, I fell in love with the country and I said I was going to move there.  And I intend to.  But I also said I was going to move to Argentina next January for a few months, and you know what, I intend to do that too.  At first, I was nervous about this because how can I live in two more countries before August 2011 when I start school?  And then, the answer was obvious.  I just won't go back to school in August 2011.

40 hours of deskwarming gives you a lot of time to think.  And use Facebook chat.  I recently reconnected with an old friend who I had a falling out with a year ago.  He always has good, although sometimes crazy, advice.  We talked about things and he convinced me that my gut feeling was right.  You've got to do this while you're young.  You can always go back to school or get a new job, but it's a lot harder to just up and leave for Argentina or Australia or Thailand etc when you've been to school, have a student loan, and a career.  He said something like "be crazy and irresponsible until you're 30, then think about settling down".  That might be the best idea I've heard.  I assume one day I will want to be a bit more grounded and I certainly want to get married and maybe even have a kid or two, but I'm in no hurry to do any of that.  So why not have some fun while I have no obligations?

The world is my oyster.

And if anyone has some advice for what to do or see in Taiwan, please let me know!  I have 2 full days and besides boba tea and Teipei 101 I'm not really sure what I should do.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Korean Lessons

I've been in Korea for a little under 6 months now, so I'm already beginning the process of reflecting over my time here.

I like to complain a lot about living in Korea, and a lot of it is justified, and I admit I'm a whiner.  But I don't actually hate it here.  I don't like it, but I don't hate it.  I feel like I'm strange sometimes, because for me there was no honeymoon period.  There has never been a real stretch of time here where I think it's great and wonderful and everything is perfect.  At first I thought maybe it was because I'm a negative person, but I have felt that way about other countries (especially Australia just a few weeks ago), so I don't think it's that.  The pace is all wrong for me.  Korea is a high stress, high pressure, high octane kind of place and I think I'm more of a drinking rum on a Caribbean beach, why do it now if it can wait until tomorrow kind of girl.  But like I said, I am not usually unhappy here.  A lot of times I'm very happy, and a lot of times I'm just neutral.

With that being said, the time I've spent here has been really valuable and I have no regrets about coming here.  I've grown up a lot and I think I have finally found a direction in life.

Ever since I can remember, people would ask me what I wanted to do when I grew up and I said "I'm not sure, I just want to help people."  They usually say "there's no money in that, you better be okay with being poor."  And I suppose I am okay with that.  I learned a while ago that money doesn't buy happiness, which is a lesson a lot of people never learn, especially in Korea.  The pressure to outperform everyone else is so high here it leads a lot of people to an early grave, often by their own hand. 

I'm not sure why I want to help people, but that's just my nature.  If I have a friend in need, I hope to be able ot help somehow.  When I'm dating someone I want to take care of them.  Sometimes I think I'm too much of a giver.  Oh, I can be quite greedy sometimes as well, but overall I think I'm generous.  If there's one good thing about getting older, especially while in Korea, its that you can really analyze your past mistakes and apply what you've learned to the now.  I recently made the statement "I just want someone to care about me the same way that I care about them."  Because I realize that I'm important too.  I've also grown a lot more mature because I can see that I handle problems differently now.  Before, if something went wrong I would immediately think it was my fault.  But now I can see that sometimes it's not me, it's you.  Not you, the reader, obviously, but the situation.  Sometimes there's just nothing you can do to prevent something from happening.

I've realized that home really is where your heart is.  So corny, I know.  I really, really hated my hometown.  To be fair, it does suck a lot and I don't think I'll ever move back, but it's where my family's at and I have a newfound love and appreciation for it. 

I've learned that I'm a lot tougher than I thought I was.  Before coming to Korea, I was still pretty sheltered.  I had some big plans, but the crap economy kept me from moving to the Big Apple and I was still living at home.  My mom cooked my dinner every night.  My dad killed bugs and put things together for me.  If I had a problem, they would handle it a lot of times.  Over here, I'm on my own and I'm surviving.  I'm an introvert by nature, but I'm getting over that.  I mean, I traveled to Australia solo for Christmas vacation.  I spent 2 weeks wandering the country, swimming with great white sharks, climbing bridges, navigating unfamiliar cities.  I'm a pretty cool chick, if I do say so myself.  Coming to Korea has given me confidence I never thought I would have.  I LIVE in South Korea, I feel like I can do almost anything now.

Probably the most important thing I'm learning is who I am and what I want to become.  On Chuseok, a big group of us went up to Seoul.  I have really bad sleeping problems that flare up from time to time, especially when traveling with people and sharing rooms.  I hadn't slept the night before so I stayed in the hotel while everyone went to Hongdae to party.  I couldn't sleep so I turned on CNN.  They were talking about a second typhoon that was about to hit the Philippines, which had just been hit by a massive one days earlier.  They talked about the suffering and the sadness and despair and my heart ached.  Everytime there's a disaster somewhere, I get the same feelings.  I donate money almost anytime there is a big natural disaster/faminine somewhere.  I donated a lot to Unicef for what they're doing in Haiti.  Donating money isn't enough, I want to help the real people, I want to be there in the war zone.  Then I thought, well, why don't I just do that?  It's something I've always dreamed about doing.  I used to say that I deserved to be rich because if I was I could do so much for people.  But I don't have to be rich.  I can just do it. 

I've never had a job I loved.  Well, that's not true, I really liked working at the tennis store for a while because I loved my co-workers and it was easy.  But I've never had a job that I loved doing.  And why is that?  Because I'm not doing anything important.  I thought teaching might be somewhat rewarding, but I still feel nothing.  Perhaps if I taught in a hogwon it would be different because you could see the improvements, but at the public school I feel like I'm nothing more than a piece of classroom equipment.

I am taking the GRE again this summer and I want to get my master's degree in International Relations or Disaster Relief.  I want to be a disaster relief worker or a diplomat, or maybe both during the course of my life.  I feel like it's my duty.  It's a calling.  I've been so lucky in my life.  I've never been homeless, never been abused, never went to bed hungry, never once felt unloved.  Perhaps this is why I feel so pulled towards disaster relief.  I want to do something for someone in need of everything.  I want to give someone what my family has given me: love, hope and support.  I know this is not entirely altruistic.  I want to help people because I want to help myself.  I want to matter to someone.  I want to change lives.  I might not be able to change the world, but I want to make an impact somehow.  I want to go to bed at night feeling like I've accomplished something good.  At the end of my life, I want to look back and know that I did something to make this world a better place instead of slaving away at a company, trying to climb the corporate ladder while making someone else rich.  I don't need a lot of things.  All I really want in life is to see the world, to make a difference, and to share my life with someone I love.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Survivor: Muju Ski Resort



Deep in the heart of South Korea lies one of the most popular ski resorts in the country.  It's a place of steep slopes, icy snow and sub-zero temperatures.  This is Muju Ski resort.  The six waegooken involved have no idea what's in store for them.  It's a hostile place with very little food, few places to sleep and absolutely no ATMs.  They must learn to work together to battle the elements or they'll be voted out.  24 hours, six people, one survivor (writer's note: we all survived, fortunately.  And nobody was voted out either).

Muju.  Where do I even start?  I suppose the beginning is a good place.  I'd been looking forward to skiing in Korea since I got here.  I even had my parents ship my ski clothes to me once the weather got cold and I finally went this past weekend.

It is not easy to get to Muju.  There are quite a few steps involved in the process.  My friend Dave and I boarded the slow train to a town called Yeongdong, about an hour and a half away from Daegu.  Dave had forgotten to go to the ATM before we left, but said he'd go once we got to the ski place.  I'd taken out W300,000 the day before (although I spent about 40,000 the night before, but I still felt like I had plenty for the weekend), so I thought that would be no problem.

We arrived at Yeongdong and then took a cab to the bus station, where according to the directions on the Muju website, we'd have to take a bus to the Muju bus terminal.  The station is virtually deserted.  We go in and Dave asks for 2 tickets to Muju.  They do not take credit cards, nor do they have an ATM.  Anywhere in town.  I'm not kidding.  The woman shows us the bus schedule and we have about two hours to wait until the next bus.  The internet said there was a bus from Muju terminal to the resort at 12:15, and the next one is after 2.  It's already about 11, so we decide to walk back to the train station and catch a cab to the Muju bus terminal to make sure we are able to catch the bus.  The cab ride was about 20 minutes and cost a little under W30,000.

The Muju bus terminal is even smaller than the Yeongdong one.  We go to the counter and look at the bus schedule and what do you know?  There is no 12:15 bus anymore.  Well, it just gives us time to look for an ATM and grab some lunch.  Hah!  There is no ATM in this town either and there aren't any places to eat.  Okay, that's not exactly true.  There was a pretty grotty looking kimbab place in the bus station.  We gave up hope and went back into the train station to figure out what to do next.  That's when we noticed a group of 4 non-Koreans standing by the benches and we decided to go up to them to see if they're planning on going to Muju and what they are going to do.  We all said hello and talked a bit and they told us that they had some sort of deal worked out with someone and they were getting a ride with a Korean friend in a car to the resort and said that we could hitch a ride with them if we wanted to.  It was our lucky day!  There were 2 cars and just enough seats to hold all of us.

In another 20 mins or so we arrived at the Muju Ski Resort town and got out at a snowboard shop.  The 6 of us get our ski rental things and change into our ski clothes.  Everyone is given a lift pass except me for some reason, but I'm assured I can get one at the resort.  We go to pay for our ski rentals and Dave's pass and it comes out to about 70-some odd thousand won.  And they don't take credit cards.  And they don't have an ATM, but that's okay because I have plenty of cash and surely they have an ATM at the resort.

The ski shop gives us a lift to the resort and we're all standing in the parking lot and the guy says he's going to get me a ski pass and it will take just a minute.  It's 55,000 and it must be in cash.  A few minutes turns into ten, then about twenty and we tell the others to go ahead without us.  It's already past 2pm and the slopes close at 6 to get ready for the night session.  Leora, Jake and Darren go on ahead and Andy waits with us because he wants to ski with his Korean friend.  He finally comes back with my pass and we head to the slopes!

I've gone skiing in Colorado and in Lake Tahoe and I was expecting it to be similar.  I haven't skied in a couple years so I was looking around for the bunny slope to practice on.  Umm, where is it?  Oh, there doesn't appear to be one (there actually was, although it was really steep for a beginner hill!).  As a side note, Jake and I were the only ones out of all of us who had ever skied before.  This will become an important fact soon.

The lines for the ski lift are INSANE.  As with most places in Korea, there isn't so much a line as there is just a giant mass of people standing around.  Also, I have never seen such crowded ski slopes in my life.



Almost an actual photo of the ski slopes.

 We randomly picked one hill to go up and got into line and ended up right behind the others.  They'd been waiting in the line for at least 15 minutes and had gotten nowhere.  It is wicked cold out and we stood in the "line" for over an hour before finally getting onto the lift.  My hands were so numb I couldn't bend my fingers.  It was about a 5 minute ride to the top and I was pretty nervous about getting off the lift, but I managed to get off without falling, so I felt pretty confident about my abilities.

There was a little shop at the top of the hill and I absolutely could not stand the cold anymore so I went inside to thaw out a little.  Man, it was painful and I was fighting back tears.  Leora and someone else (I can't remember who) had bought cups of hot chocolate and we had just sat down so they could drink it when we got kicked out because the shop was closing.  They literally had one sip before they had to throw their drinks out.  Back out into the cold we go!

We're standing at the top of the hill and for the first time I realize "dear god I have to get down this hill somehow".  Any confidence I once had was now gone as I looked down into the abyss.  A bunch of ski resort people were at the top of the hill yelling at people and blowing whistles.  The slopes were closing and we had to go down right that minute.  Well, here goes nothing.  I start sliding down and I try to go slow but I keep getting faster and faster and so I try to zigzag like I was taught in my lessons but I think there was something wrong with my right ski because it would not turn.  I'm heading right towards the fence and dodging Koreans as best as I could.  I made the decision to wipe out because if I didn't do it then I might get killed.  So I fell hard, my poles flying behind me.  I'm lying in the snow trying to crawl up the hill, but I can't.  Two skiers picked up my poles and brought them to me, so I tried to stand up.  It's really difficult to stand up with skis on.  I tried to hoist myself up using the poles, but my upper body strength was not cutting it.  I tried to take the skis off but couldn't do that either.  I had no choice but go down the hill on my butt.

Using the skis as a sled, I would go down the hill for a few seconds really fast then put my hands out in the snow to slow myself down before I killed someone.  This caused snow and ice to get up my shirt, down my pants and into my gloves.  It was cold.

Dave finally caught up to me and we were going about the same pace.  He was snowboarding and falling frequently, although I give him props for doing as well as he did because I failed hard at snowboarding when I tried.  He tried to help me to my feet but it just wasn't happening so I continued my butt sliding.  The hill seemed to never end!  Every time you'd go down a hill there would just be another one and I was getting pretty cold and tired.  Finally a girl on the ski patrol came up to me and I asked her to help me out of my skis.  She unclipped me and I was FINALLY able to stand up.  She collected my skis and told me to meet her down at the base.  I walked down the hill for a few minutes and then this other ski patrol guy with a deflated rubber raft attached to his waist approached me and told me to get onto it.  I protested but realized that he wasn't trying to be nice, they were closing the hill and I needed to be down.  So I sat down, my face red, being pulled down the slope.  I was pleased to find that 2 of the others were rescued as well, so I felt better knowing I wasn't the only one.  I can't imagine trying to ski for the first time ever on that giant hill!

When the six of us were all together, we went over to Popeyes to grab some food.  We were planning to get some Korean BBQ after the night ski session but we wanted something to keep us going for the next few hours.  Walking up to Popeyes, I slipped on the icy sidewalk and fell.  It was pretty embarrassing and even more painful.  We found a table in the super crowded cafeteria and sat down to eat.  Dave, Jake and Andy wanted to go out again as soon as the slopes re-opened but Leora, Darren and I were not going back up the Mt. Everest slopes again any time soon.  We said we'd stay at the bottom and practice on the beginner slope for a while.

While practicing before the bunny slope, all of my ski knowledge came rushing back so I was able to give them a crappy lesson about how to stand and turn, but I think it was somewhat useful.  I also realized, while skiing down the little hill, that I'm not a bad skier, the conditions around me were making me bad.  I've never skied on manufactured snow.  It was really, really icy and that made it hard to control your speed or direction.   There were also about 20,000 Koreans standing around on the hill so navigating was also a serious issue.  I managed to get down the hill once and was forced to wipe out at the bottom lest I kill people.  We went up one more time but it seemed more crowded the second time so I just sat down and went down on my butt again.

At 10 we all headed back into "town".  I say "town" because it's not much of one.  Dave and I were going to try to find our own hotel but the others asked us if we wanted to stay in their room.  It was a sauna style room, as in there is no bed and you just sleep on mats on the floor, so we would easily fit.  We agreed and we split the cost of the room.  It worked out really well because we had so much fun and saved a load of money.  But of course, it had to be paid for in cash.

After dropping the stuff off in the room, we went back down to try to find some dinner.  We asked the ski shop where to eat and they said they have food there but there's no other food in town.  We then asked if there is an ATM around and they said no, the only ATM in the entire city is at the ski resort welcome center.  In Korea, your ATM cards stop working by midnight, so we rushed up there to make it in time.  We get in and see the ATM in the corner and....it's dead.  Not even closed for the night, completely off.  The guy at the front desk said it might work the next day.

We go back to our hotel and buy some soju, beer and chips, then try to find some food.  There are about 3 restaurants in town and all were closed except for this chicken place, so we ended up going there and getting some pieces of chicken and take them back to the room.  We killed the chicken pretty quick, then did the same with the Sunchips.  And the booze.  It was quite a fun night and we didn't end up getting to bed until after 5am.  The night was somewhat eventful thanks to the drinking ("Darren, what are you doing in the cupboard?").

The next morning we said our goodbyes to the other 4 and then Dave and I had to make our way back home somehow.  Supposedly there was a bus going to Muju Bus Terminal, but we had to wait for over an hour.  We walked around looking for a 7-11 or coffee shop, anywhere to get food and/or money but found nothing.  We ended up sharing a cab with a Korean family back to the bus terminal for W10,000.  Thank god Dave remembered that he kept a W50,000 bill in the back of his wallet for emergencies, because we would not have gotten home without it.  We took a cab back to Yeongdong from Muju, then we caught a train back to Daegu.  Luckily, the ticket kiosks at the train stations take credit cards!

At the end of the day, we decided if we go skiing again, we're trying High One.  Maybe they have an ATM there.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

America, Fuck Yeah!

I got the ok to take the week of Lunar New Year off and I will be fleeing Korea and going back to the homeland.  23 days until America!  Target!  Chick-fil-a!  Thai food!  Family!  It's going to be amazing.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

You Win Some, You Lose Some

The crazy flower cart stayed parked in front of my building until past 8pm.  This better not be a regular thing or else...I don't even know what I will do.

Winter camp has finally driven me to the brink of insanity and I wrote a desperate plea to my co-teacher to help me.  I have no idea what to do.  I can't teach kids who don't even know what I'm saying.  There are 1 or 2 kids who have a limited grasp of English, but most kids can barely say 4 words, and some don't even know the alphabet.  Yesterday I tried to get them to play charades because that seemed like something they could do without knowing much English.  I even stood in front of them and demonstrated how to play and looked like a dork barking like a dog and they still had no idea.  I made them try it and I don't even know what the hell was happening, but it certainly was no charades.  I still have 7 more days of this torture.

When I did camp last week at a different school, it was all organized.  There was a class roster, the kids were there at 9 and left at 12.  At my school, kids wander in whenever they feel like it and leave just the same.  Seriously, kids will come in at, say 9:50, or 10:10 and they'll just randomly get up and leave.  I have no idea what's going on and I can't ask them.  I can't even plan how many worksheets to copy because I have a different number of kids every 20 minutes!

Before camp started I asked my teacher what the grade level would be and how many kids would there be, but of course I got no response.  They seem very young, a lot of them I've never even seen before, which puts them in 1st or 2nd grade.  Then there was a 6th grader too, but her English level is really low also.  It's like pulling teeth to get any answers from them.  We were playing Hangman, which is the only game they know how to play, and even super simple answers (which they have on their papers in front of them) take 2 or 3 rounds to guess.  We learned about geography that day and they had worksheets with all of the continents on them.  The first day the word was A_RICA.  They were looking at the paper with all the words and I was so sure they'd get it.  And they guessed J.  Ajrica.  Okay.

On the plus side, 24 started this week, so I have many hours of viewing pleasure this week.  Hours 1 and 2 were exciting, and I'm told 3 and 4 get even better.  Even more motivation to survive tomorrow's class!

Shut Up!

If I die and go to hell, I'm pretty sure I'll just end up back here in my apartment reliving this afternoon over and over and over again. 

So in Korea, they like to have obnoxious trucks that blast advertisements as they drive along.  But if you're especially unlucky, they'll park their fucking truck right outside of your house and sit there all. day. long.  Playing K-pop.  A fate worse than death.  I can't think of anything more annoying than listening to K-pop all day, and I'm being completely honest.  It's worse than Chinese water torture.

It sounds like there's a fucking nightclub downstairs.  The retched K-pop is blasting so loud it's vibrating my insides.  Then, to make things worse, there's some woman with a nasally, shrill voice that comes on the microphone every 20 seconds to talk and it's so goddamn loud I can hear every word-with my fucking earplugs in.

These people are lucky I don't speak enough Korean, or I would be down there giving them a piece of my mind right now-if I haven't lost it all already.

Haha this is absolutely perfect.