I'm going home tomorrow. This is the second year in a row I've been in this position: ending a life abroad, ending 6 weeks of travel, going back to the familiar and comfortable. I am so excited I'm not sure if I will sleep tonight. I can't wait to see my family and my pets and my home and my friends. I can't wait to eat my favorite foods and drive my car and read Us Weekly. I can't wait to hang out with my sister and her dog, have pizza with my dad for lunch on Fridays, go to Target with my mom. I can't wait to play cards with my grandma and see my little dog I adopted for my other grandma while in Korea. I can't wait to watch Dexter, Walking Dead, Amazing Race and Survivor.
But with that comes the sadness. I'm ending another era, and it's hard. Just like Korea, living in Australia changed my life. I built a life there. I had a job, a routine, friends, love interests. I had some of the best times of my life and some of the worst. I met incredible new people and lost a very dear person to me: my grandfather. I'm afraid to go home and have to deal with those emotions I was able to push out of my mind because there was nothing around me to remind me of him.
I'm sad that this trip is ending. It's been an exhausting trip, but such an amazing journey. Unlike last year, I traveled with my bestie. I'm so used to spending all day with her it's going to be weird to not see her 24/7.
This is also the first time in years that I am going blindly into the unknown. Soon after I graduated from uni, I started working on the Korea application. When I left Korea, I knew I was going to live in Australia in 2011. But this time, I don't know what will happen. I'm going to let fate decide. There's a job that I am hoping to get back in the US. There are a lot of people I still want to see in Sydney. If I get the job in the States, I will take it. If I don't, I think I will go back to Sydney after Christmas, finish my work visa there (late March), then I may head to New Zealand. Or perhaps I will get sponsored in Australia, or meet someone who will fall in love with me and treat me well and will never break my heart. Who knows? I sure don't.
But with that comes the sadness. I'm ending another era, and it's hard. Just like Korea, living in Australia changed my life. I built a life there. I had a job, a routine, friends, love interests. I had some of the best times of my life and some of the worst. I met incredible new people and lost a very dear person to me: my grandfather. I'm afraid to go home and have to deal with those emotions I was able to push out of my mind because there was nothing around me to remind me of him.
I'm sad that this trip is ending. It's been an exhausting trip, but such an amazing journey. Unlike last year, I traveled with my bestie. I'm so used to spending all day with her it's going to be weird to not see her 24/7.
This is also the first time in years that I am going blindly into the unknown. Soon after I graduated from uni, I started working on the Korea application. When I left Korea, I knew I was going to live in Australia in 2011. But this time, I don't know what will happen. I'm going to let fate decide. There's a job that I am hoping to get back in the US. There are a lot of people I still want to see in Sydney. If I get the job in the States, I will take it. If I don't, I think I will go back to Sydney after Christmas, finish my work visa there (late March), then I may head to New Zealand. Or perhaps I will get sponsored in Australia, or meet someone who will fall in love with me and treat me well and will never break my heart. Who knows? I sure don't.
Change and the unknown can be scary things.
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